i dont know why, these days i felt like crying my ass off, i dont know. its like Allah s.w.t has show me HIS direction. i can feel it, i dont know. im scared. something like push me away. and something says loudly in my mind that this is my time to go. i am so scared. so i guess this is my time to change and pray for HIS forgiveness. astargfirullahalazim.